About

“Life is not a race. Do take it slower, hear the music before the song is over.”

David L Weatherford from Slow Dance

Setting the Scene

I am a 47 year old woman at a crossroads in my life.  Married with children.

I am not sure what road to take.  I have struggled with depression and find it hard sometimes to take part in family or social life.  I would rather avoid going out than meet and have to speak to people.  I am an introvert and am very happy in my own company but from the outside people may think me standoffish. I have not been a good mother or give my children the time they need and I am probably an even worse wife.  I need to learn to appreciate more of what I have and be content.  I want to be a better role model for my kids and be there for them before it is too late.

Professionally, I have been successful but spent a lot of time doing my job – leaving very little time for family or me.  My job has thrown me into the limelight and in some cases made me a target – people tend not to see how hard you work but are happy when you make mistakes.  I have to learn not to worry about what other people think and just get on with my thing.  I do love my job – it challenges me and I enjoy what I do – I know it is a rare thing these days.

I am extremely good at putting on a front – giving off a different perception.  People would think I am happy, focused and organised.  This is far from the truth.

I am overweight, unfit, irritable, listless and know I need to make changes.  I have tried in the past and know exactly what I need to do.  I have read lots of books and am aware of proper nutrition and health.  I am even a good cook.  But I have lacked the motivation or time (there has always been an excuse of some sort).

What am I going to do?

In 2018 I am going to help myself.

My goal by 2019 is to be happier, content and a much better work/life balance.  I would like to be sure which path I am headed down.

Hopefully by doing a blog I will be motivated to keep going and will post the trials and tribulations of my 2018 journey.